From last December to now, this year, my life is extremely painful and gray through, this way, there is grief, sad, sad, there are strong, but this sometimes pain, sometimes numb, sometimes tears, still interwoven in every day of life. And his wife from 2008 began to actively create people, want to have a child of their own, two years have passed, but no movement, in these two years, I also suggest to do a pre-pregnancy check what, but the serious reticent wife is determined not to go to the hospital (more than 20 years ago, her father died of cancer, 11 years ago her mother died of cancer, So the wife has a special hatred for the hospital. See the wife is not happy to go, we will be obedient, let it go, when pregnant is what, but from last May, the wife began to abdominal distension, waist acid, but even so, persuade to go to a hospital is very difficult, in September, just a good friend of the mother to Shanghai to see the World Expo, his mother is a retired doctor, we went to his home when we visited, We are strongly advised to check it out. Wait for the end of September a check, the original wife gynecological long several large cysts, checked online, then the quack also said, should be benign, so intend to drink Chinese medicine to get down, then more and more wrong, the cyst began to grow up, hurry to see a doctor, about surgery. I remember clearly, on December 28, 2010, my wife was pushed into the operating room, and I reassured her that it was okay. During the operation, suddenly the doctor came out to call his wife's name, I hastened to come forward, thunderbolt, the doctor told, the wife is already gynecological cancer in the late stage, the operation must remove the uterus ovary fallopian tube appendix, greater omental membrane, etc., let me sign, I was then collapsed, tears came to my eyes, a paralysis on the ground, can not stand up. Fortunately, during the surgery, I called a buddy to come over, and after a long struggle, there was no way to sign the most painful signature of my life. Later, relapse, looking for a very bovine B cancer hospital experts to see, just know that the first operation is not very successful, this is later. After surgery, has been hidden from the wife, a person bearing this huge pain, often in front of the wife laugh, a person outside to cry, that time, is really unbearable to look back, I walk in the street so out of mind, must be wearing sunglasses, walking, tears on the drop to the road ### help brother tip, blessing! Wish LZ wife good health! ### Bless LZ, be strong. ### Pray. But an annual check-up is a must. Take responsibility for yourself. During that period of time in the hospital, because my wife was free and lonely, my parents were not there, my parents were old and inconvenient, so running before and after became a personal thing, ignoring sadness, climbing up and fighting… After the wife, the gas, can go to the ground, during the day, please nurse aunt, as soon as I get off work, I rushed back to a, boil black fish soup, on the way to buy some wife want to eat, rushed to the hospital, every day, the whole in the hospital to sleep half a month of folding chair, sleep that backache. Later, began chemotherapy, after chemotherapy for the second time, the wife's beautiful long hair off, I advised her to shave bald forget it, save trouble, the wife said hair is also life, let them naturally remove it, so, at that time, at home, the wife in front of me, I hold a broom dustpan behind to follow the sweep, OK, it is prepared for the first time after chemotherapy, I took my wife to buy a couple of wigs. Then is the third, the fourth chemotherapy, which, but also go back to review, I and all the nurses and doctors have said hello, to hide the wife. But to the 5th time after chemotherapy, the doctor suggested to do a B-ultrasound, I dare not let do ah, B-ultrasound room, I can not go, it is full of women, do not do B-ultrasound, the heart is nervous, do not know how the lesion recovery; Do it, B-ultrasound doctors are very broken, must see the wife's B-ultrasound, will scream: Mom, why there is nothing? Ahh… This sudden blow like thunder tops, the wife absolutely can not bear, after all, she is only in her early 30s ah ### bless Lanzhou this thing is a kind of suffering there are a lot of too real too realistic words not to say together is the fate to cherish it may be able to cherish the days really few ### First bless you! Look ahead! ### Severe denial of medical treatment? In fact, they are in the delay! Parents are such a situation is a high-risk group, every year to do tests, blood tests can be, there is nothing to avoid. And their own life! People and people in the final analysis is a long will be divided. Do not say that human nature is changeable, a single life and death apart has called many people's heartbreak. The one who leaves first is always happier than the latter. Love a person, sometimes is waiting. Love a person, sometimes is to pay. Love a person, sometimes waiting. Love a person, sometimes is to leave. Love a person, sometimes is forgotten. The most rare is clearly love, but can only forget. Smile through every street without each other, and other people long stream… Life if only like the first, what autumn wind sad painting fan. Encouragement ^_^### Best wishes LZ. I hope LZ's wife is healthy. ### Blessings! ### Best wishes!! ### Blessings, your wife is very lucky to have a husband who loves her like you ### Peace!! ### Blessing ~~~ ~LZ is a good man to see the eyes are wet ### see I also want to cry!! Sincerely hope your wife can slowly get better!! Two small husband and wife live in peace! LZ come on… good man… never abandon ### # Yes, the problem is genetic, parents are this disease, may be LZ's wife in his own mind also know so a little self-deception, dare not go to the hospital to check. Really poor, help LZ pray together, hope a miracle will happen, hope LZ's wife can recover ### bless you and your wife hope she can recover soon you can spend a lifetime together ### See my tears also come out lz is not easy, bless lz's wife can slowly get better I had a small gynecological surgery before, Know how difficult the days in the hospital, lz is really hard ### Your wife in this life meet you also count as no white afterlife walk on a wish your lover recover soon, love will win the day ### Sometimes, many people are really in the blessing I do not know the blessing often read this kind of post more than a gratitude ### husband so, how to ask for? Best wishes to lz and lzlp. Often see Puyou community on the true feelings of the men, always feel very envious. ### Nothing else to say, spend more time with… Alas ###lz is a good man! Wish lz's wife good health! ### Must bless! People who have not experienced chemotherapy can never experience the pain of death, every time after chemotherapy, the first day is flushed, the 2nd to 5th day is serious gastrointestinal reaction, do not want to eat anything, vomit what they eat, spit until the last stomach acid dark green can come out, the 7th to 10th day is bone marrow suppression, the whole body bones pain, every time at this time, I am sleeping on the floor, or another bedroom, watching my wife all night long pain can not sleep, rolling on the bed, which is also the reason for my different bed: in order to let I turn over the space is big enough. After five chemotherapy treatments, I remember it was April this year, spring came, I wanted to hold on for some time, and then slowly tell some of her truth, but the stubborn and extremely smart wife (the wife's IQ is much higher than me, from her own ACCA, CPA, CTA, high mouth and a series of difficult qualifications can be seen) said that she would not let her do B-ultrasound, she could find a hospital to do it. In the past, I cheated her wounds have not grown well, can not pelvic probing type B ultrasound, all 4 months have passed, relying on this can not hide, do not want her to secretly run the hospital was hit, but also see her recovery is good, so, in the end of April one day, in the park told her, and a sad day to cry, I also cried. In the wife knows that she can no longer be a mother, she every day I lose my temper, to the baby, when I had a headache, can only comfort her, wait for you five years later, the condition is stable, after we find a, so, the lovely wife every day online research how to process. Finally, in the Spring Festival at the beginning of the year, I bought a lot of fireworks, the bad luck of this year all blown away, in May after the sixth chemotherapy, the wife, finally can live like normal people here, also want to thank the wife during the hospital, I used to study in Jiaotong University graduate students, have come to visit, gratitude, no longer detailed. I remember that after my wife's surgery, I asked the chief physician about the situation, the doctor has told me that the cancer prognosis is very poor, and the five-year survival rate is only 20%, which means that 100 such patients can persist through 5 years, only 20. It's sad to think about it. The meaning of life is the comparison of death, therefore, I plan to wait for the wife's physical recovery, will start to roam the motherland's great rivers and mountains, God does not give us children, then the money to raise children to play it, so, the first goal, is the wife recite for a long time Lijiang, Merry snow mountain, this trip, as far as possible every day to arrange easy points, the wife plays very happy, My heart is also quite happy. On a business trip, go back to his wife's hometown, buy her parents' cemetery (for so many years, the ashes of the second old have been placed in the funeral home, it is time to bury), and then plan to go back to Shanxi with his wife in October, send cold clothes Festival on the first day of October, bury my parens-in-law who I have not seen, but also a wish of his wife, In case the wife is sorry one day. In June, I used Changsha to give customers training opportunities, and took my wife to Zhangjiajie, Phoenix, and a very happy journey. In July, I also went to Guilin Yangshuo and Beihai Silver Beach. Originally planned to go to Kanas, Tianshan, northern Xinjiang in September, but in September, the wife began to abdominal distension, abdominal pain, this time did not hurry, directly to the cancer hospital acquaintances, find the best expert W, see, the doctor put the wife to spend, serious told me, recurrence, alas! My heart was pounding. This fucking cancer. Why? Why does it recur so quickly? So a year, we actively face life, I climb up at 6 o 'clock every morning to make Chinese medicine, my wife eats the cordyceps that my classmates buy from Tibet every day, my wife's state is so good, but the damn cancer is coming again ###LZ is a good person, you lp met you are very blessed, this may be God in another aspect of her compensation